Friday, February 24, 2006

Better Together..

Goodnight Goodnight
I’m still at my best friend’s house.
She’s sleeping at the moment.
I’m using her computer.
I’m longing for some company – just someone to talk to.
I’ve made contact with a guy that I haven’t been talking quite a lot for quite a year. It felt pretty good. But it was pretty clear that old feelings may have come back. Old reminiscence – you know what I mean?
Don’t believe everything I type – it’s not original. The whole world isn’t.
Don’t you just hate it when you’re chatting with someone and they abruptly stop your conversation? It’s the meanest thing – other than being left out. You hate to wonder whether you’re a good conversationalist or not. If they bring up an excuse – it still doesn’t heal the scratch.
Now I know how it feels like – sometimes words can lead you into ‘unexpectations’. Sometimes words can just bind you with someone forever – or almost forever. I want you. I need you. Those simple words can just seem so simple but then it explains everything I feel for him. I may never met you, or I may have known about you for all the wrong/right reasons, but still, I’m glad it happened to me. You mean everything to the world to me. I know it seems crazy but it’s true. I said this a thousand times, I’ll say it once again. I know there are probably thousands of teens out there who may have the emotional connection that I feel, but then it doesn’t mean mine is less undervalued or anything. I just can’t stop thinking about you. I want to be in your arms. I want to be the attention of many eyes filled with envy. I want you to make me feel special. I want you to make me feel beautiful. I want a lot of things – all of them, or 99.9 % of them just wants to be with you.
Hour increments. Sometimes it comes. Then it goes. Then it comes back times three. Then it goes again.
There are so much to see – so little time.
Kudos for cable!
The day with a smile. A smile can be worth of a thousand hidden feelings.
Sometimes I just can’t express it in words. Words is a very powerful thing. That even didn’t come out right.
I feel loveless but not merit of unloveliness now.
Smile Like You Mean It – just strongly burdens the feelings that mingle this night. My dad’s not here. My family’s not here. My best friend’s asleep. Yup, I’m listening to the Killers.
Sorry but the man of my dreams just grabbed my attention once again.
The hand behind this pen relives a failure everyday

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