I Want To Hear You Sad..

i'm going to make this pretty short, cause i really don't have anything else to say.
i'm @ netopia, so as it is a public place, i wouldn't be so open with people around me. consider me as a agoraphobic.
i don't have those gargantuous feelings for him as before. consider it a moving-on process. i'm just bummed that i can't find anyone else to put my heart into.
i would have passed out if it all came true. or even meet him.
he genuinely seems like a sweet person x)
argghh..i'm doing it all over again. seriously, how long has it been. tell you what, if this keeps going on and on till november, give me someone else, i swear x(
i think i'm developing an uncurable sickness. i'm just saying that because i don't want to be one the cases of 'loved-up with a celeb' kind of thing.
i'm scared something will leak out. yup, i'm currently wearing boxer-type shorts.
OMG, it would be so embaressing if it actually fcking did.
i miss my friends but i'm quite glad that i get to spend time with my family.
hope it all goes well >> the whole summer vacation again.
the bummer thing is out again. i guess i got to resort myself to better things.
got a lot of studying and preparation if i want to go to the university that i want. is it is set for those above-average minds. i guess i should redeem myself, or in other words, find out whether i'm one of them or something. one thing that i'm quite worried about is the language of tagalog itself. i just realized how much i'm missing out on speaking it. i could be communicating more if i had learned the language. seriously, i feel guilty for not even speaking my own COUNTRY's. argghh.
i fink i'll bring it out slowly. i just don't think i can see in anyone's mind that i speak tagalog at a point. arggh, it's a change i'm willing to try, but not sure whether it would work somehow.
hmm, what else is bothering me?
oh, that i'm not communicating well enough to other people as much as i should have been.
that i give off this aura of snobbishness and whatnot.
i absolutely hate it. i really think i have a problem of communicating with other people.
it's only the people where i come to grow comfortable with when i can totally act as myself.
is that a problem?
i'm outta here. looking @ hot new vids and other useless junk.
i hope she stops giving us crap that we gotta deal with. the words stressed and messed up once again brings up in our minds.
fcking stress upbringers.
damnn..
btw >> it's damn hot here. i miss the cold weather of KL and the airplane.
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