Love Like Winter..

arggh. it's been officially done.
AFI's love like winter music video has been broadcasted on our mtv screens. and i'm not in it.
hehehe, what i mean is, my fantasies include doing this awesome music video for AFI, cause i heart their song. it's awesome. i wanted to be that girl, playing angel of DEATH. it's pretty awesome, but the girl they had was pretty good. i could have done better, hahhaah, just kidding. anyways, that's done. hehehee, they did a pretty good job of it overall. i love the song. the music video tries to capture the essence, and its like, great, actually.
okay, i feel the constant pressure. to be 'in'. to be fluttering like a social butterfly even though i'll never be one, because i just don't feel IT. but still, it's like, in front of my face and i'm looking at myself in an almost shattered mirror so the image i see comes out all messed up. but it keeps drawing me in for some reason.