Running..

My Christmas was pretty merry =D
A nice day at home..with the family! It was pretty awesome. Those family moments should never be forgotten. I regret all those times when I wanted to hangout with my friends when I was actually with my family. I realized now how important it is to spend quality FAMILY time with the ones I love.
Anyway, I think I have enough privacy to write what I really want to talk about. These days, my faith in God hasn’t been as strong as it used to. Even though it’s those days where it should probably the strongest. But I know eventually (I can’t say exactly when) that it’ll go back to track.
I’m still waiting for the direction in which my life is destined to go through after high school ends. The uni that I applied to is a Jesuit Loyola school. I really want to explain everything in what I experienced when I went there. It looked pretty good. They were in a process of building a new dorm. I was told that only the senior and probably a couple of sophomore and juniors will get to live there, so all the freshmen will have to live at the old dorm. From what I remembered when I went there last June, it was pretty..I don’t know. The average dorm room I guess? There’s four people in each room. What I was really questioning about is the bathroom. They looked pretty old and umm.. ;L
The facilities looked pretty good. But some of the classrooms don’t have AC so I don’t know whether I’ll survive if the weather becomes UBER-HOT which it can in most days.
Another thing that frightens me about college is the social life. I’m totally scared about that. Since I can’t really speak Tagalog and probably that’s what the students will talk in 70% of the time, I really don’t know what to expect, you know? Whether they’ll laugh at me because I’m actually a Philo who can’t speak Tagalog or they’ll be willing to accept it as part of who I am. A Philo who grew up overseas. I heard mixed reactions. Someone said that philos don’t like it when philos can’t speak Tagalog. Others say that they’ll be willing to teach it to you. The others say that they’ll probably laugh at you first, but you know, you just got to accept it.
The subjects for the first year is pretty basic. English, Tagalog (slash Filipino but luckily my dad said they’ll put me in a special class for beginners thank goodness), Theology (Religion), Natural Science (gasp, for the past six months I didn’t take anything remotely related to Science because of the Business pathway) and P.E are the subjects that my dad has.
The good thing is having my own wardrobe, my own stuff in my own dorm. That’s probably the most exciting thing, besides finally having to have my own laptop =D
I’ll give you an update the nxt time, depending whether I’ll get the privacy I need.
Later <3-ers..

Keep the Car Running..

The song that I'm currently listening to by Arcade Fire 'Keep the Car Running' is awesome. It gives you that sort of feeling when your on a long road trip and you have nothing else to do but just look out in the view.
Hmm..how would it be like to have a blog where people actually read it? Or even better, getting paid to actually blog?
One day, something like that is going to happen.
Over this holiday, I've been getting the fact that it would be my last holiday as a high school student stapled in my head over and over again. Does it feel right? i do not know.
Am I being too analytical about this?
I just want to enjoy my holiday, you know?
I've realized how much difference there is in the life that I want to lead and the life that I am currently living in. We're living in a sort of ghetto-place. My future dream life pretty much consists of living near a city (probably Makati) in a urban-hip apartment, living the sortof plush life.
I dunno, one can only dream, you know?
Anyway, hmm.. there's use in complaning here so I'll think of something else to write about.
I can't wait to go back to Jakarta. I mean I want to enjoy my holiday here in the Philippines, but everytime I'm here, it causes me to think more and more about the future. Cause there's almost 100% chance that my future would be here. I reckon that I might stay here to finish my studies, find some work experience for a couple of years, and then move abroad. I don't know what my parents would say, mostly something like, 'we don't have the money to do it. it's gonna be hard to find a job like that. its so competitive' and all that. arggh. I know they're trying to push me out of my dream-like optimistic phase with a harsh dose of reality but still, you know?
Anyhoo. I want a holiday abroad Asia. Anywhere nice and exotic. Somewhere like Greece. Or Hawaii. Ooh. When I graduate hopefully we can finally afford a vacation to someplace like Hawaii. Hopefully, if the money comes in right.
I want somewhere where I can take pictures that my friends can be jealous of. hahaa. simple and plain.
still in a PUBLIC computer rental place. the privacy isn't that fulfilling.
Arggh. What I'm really, like, deathly afraid about going to college is not really about the work. I won't mind doing tons and tons of work, but the thing that's really stressing right now is my lack of Tagalog. Arggh, it's so annoying.
Xoxoxo

HeroHeroine..

I'm at the Philippines right now..spending my holidays here..
hmm...what can i say about it?
its been interesting..
i guess you can say its my final holiday (and it only just begun like, a couple of days ago) before i officially go to college..
yesterday i went to the college that i applied to (and also, the only one that i currently applied to) and i (sort of) loved it.
i can't really get into much of that detail because im in the warnet right now and its sort of weird to be writing my personal blog entries in a public space..
i don't feel that comfortable right now. even though people are bustling about doing their business, i jst can't stand it when i notice people glancing at my computer..grr..
i'm scared for college.
sorry for the short entry..
achh. =(